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Saturday, January 1st, 2011
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12:58 am
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((ooc: written in blood))
Blood at the moontime or the sun won't rise tomorrow
little beating hearts
current mood:  panicked
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| Tuesday, December 14th, 2010
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7:46 pm
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Greg Greg Greg I am
I have hidden away, among trees in woods behind leaves, I have folded into the world away, please
Do not go back there, come away, I'll look for you. Don't go back, avoid hands, claws that are coming, coming, stay away from your head and come to the cold spaces betweeen the trees, I'll see you there, keep you safe, we can get away once I find the thestral.
current mood:  distressed
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| Sunday, December 12th, 2010
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5:46 pm
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the pear that flew away, it flew, it was a pear that flew...
I didn't didn't do anything, no-
current mood:  shocked
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| Saturday, November 27th, 2010
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4:19 pm
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-she was here, I know, I saw her here, not in Greg's head, no, she was real, walking around, her mouth, her fingers, her tears, her hair that was brown, it was brown with no red, except then once when she left. when she left-
I saw her, there, saw her with my own eyes, my eyes, my eyes that daddy said were hers too, her eyes and mouth, her skin all over, her her her he didn't, he had her already but he took her away and then she didn't come back. She didn't come back and take me.
Why did I see her.
I hate her. I hate her. why did I see her. Where has she gone.
current mood:  confused
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| Wednesday, November 17th, 2010
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10:27 pm
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so sorry so so still and gone now, all, gone. not if I close my eyes, open too. gone.
little wire form aches inside this cage here to wrap my arms around and hold it all in, tearing tearing tearing and aching, get get Greg to rubrubrub it better rub it better rub it
this thin line a crack a thin crack in my head burning against inside. ow.
lie down Theo lie down
current mood:  sore
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| Friday, October 8th, 2010
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10:51 pm
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Oh it's so tiny, tiny soft softness tiny tinynss soft in monochrome in blacks in white in black black black with white whiteness li-
-curving many needles catch from small smaller hands in tissue paper skin drawing rd lines, oh, dripping splits dripdripdrip drip
drip
What was I Soft small tiny body, little squeaks... oh a tiny tiny mouth with tiny tinier teeth... but hands of spikes. All wire all wrapped in cotton this little thing, darling darling darling, small thestral, little light, black and white, dappled sun in shade.
Mine, mine, mine!
(ooc: Cause you're probably only a little less confused than I am now about all this... here is what he's on about
current mood:  giddy
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| Sunday, October 3rd, 2010
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5:10 am
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All those watchers watch all the time all those watch always, they don't close their eyes, count to seven and he'll go, be gone that stone, that heavy weight, but no one stops watching they all noticed where NO ONE NO ONE NO FUCKING ONE FUCK FUCK FUCK
-no one noticed before.
H ewants to b egone be free like, like, like thestrals.
They don't come around anymore. Like prayers. He used to, he said prayers but but but it felt like there was nobody there. He wants to fly but they don't come around anymore.
It's- I'm trying to save him But they don't allow it, they don't like, it upsets them; meds at med time, showers at shower, the fog and the tubes and the pushing pushing pushingpushing inside, oh, but nothings getting inside anymore, nothing, nothing that I say, nothing at all, ha. Ha ha.
What was I They won't let me.
And just. Quidditch.
Into the lake, underunder the water, over, so easy, so so easy but they won't let me.
Won't. Let. ME
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| Thursday, September 30th, 2010
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4:47 am
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STONE in the path, bastard not bastard nott a bastard you bastard you stone, you weight, you lie liar heavily in the path and block, you stop, you stopper, you stone, you anchor in the way of those birds brooms, wonderful flying was all he wanted but you, holding down his breaking wings you've broken
You let them come in for him, he likes you to, you let them come in but later later oh later go to push them back out, nothing stays in, nothing fucking stays in why why he can come to take this away, can come to take this
Oh water, oh water flowing over my head, oh water it's NOT a bad, it's not a bad, it's not bad, not nott bad bad nott bad nott bad bad badstop stop
stop
stop
stop
oh please stop oh please
current mood: angry
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| Sunday, September 26th, 2010
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2:44 am
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spiders run they run through my skull little feet skittering over my mind like fever like a fire burning through leaving ash ash ash behind it, zach says never again nott here but it's not true, it's not, or why why why I feel it, feel them, claw-tugging tugging tugging and turning and always so cold oh so cold in the mornings without-
why over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over but never never again except it burns inside, under my skin, an itch that won't come out, a burn that won't pull out, a touch that won't cut out, not anywhere he says
not anywhere not anywhere but nott everywhere, all through this poisonous candy
current mood: scared
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| Sunday, September 5th, 2010
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8:09 pm
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very very tired now.
i am not ready for school. sorry. so sorry.
not to eat it is a trap. very tired. when are classes?
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| Sunday, August 29th, 2010
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9:18 pm
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I have finally killed myself, left from my head and died. This new place is like no limbo I had imagined.
There is a wonderful, a warmth, and the feel, nothing like those, nothing like that nothing like it nothing he likes the if you have no defences. Likes to take them down, better if you have none, when you grow up and he knows how to take them down.
But I don't, I DONT have to eat.
current mood:  pensive
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| Thursday, August 26th, 2010
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9:59 pm
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There are no more students in this classroom and I have only a textbook
There are no classmates here but one one big heart
I am going to wake up
but I don't want to
I am going to wake up
but I don't want to
current music: slow motion suicide
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| Saturday, August 21st, 2010
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11:46 pm
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NO more feeding, they have given in but but what's coming next???
Must keep aware awake and not sleep
current mood: worried
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| Monday, August 9th, 2010
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5:25 am
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| Sunday, August 1st, 2010
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3:38 am
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So many blanks in my head now. Taken, chopped out, thrown away.
I don't know.
I feel, I feel. I should be remembering something but that this very b.l.a.n.k (shhhh) is an important reason and that is....
and that is....
and that is...
How does that make you feel hOw dOEs thAt mAkE yOU fEEl HoW DoeS THaT MaKe You FeeL, feel feel feelfeel, fingers, fingers over your, shhh shh shh, over your mouth to shhhhhhhh. He's here. In the darkness. Here in the dark. Here dark. Close your eyes for the lights flashing - what, what ======*something is heavily scribbled out here*======-ASE NO NO NO. but shhhh, again, precious boy. Shh.
If you don't see then it didn't. happen. didn't. watch. watchwatchwatch tick tock tick, oh, time marching, marches on, that army, that time, robbing, that thief in the fucking night, that cobbler, time, making those b . l . a . n . k . s happen , so we say thank you thankyouthankyouthankyou thief, small tock with sharp hands. Hurt me.
Cover your mouth then it can't happen, then you can FORGET!
current mood:  nauseated
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| Saturday, July 24th, 2010
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11:50 pm
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Oh, you're so fucking smart, aren't you.
Well you bleed red in the centre JUST LIKE THE REST, LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
current mood: angry
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| Monday, July 19th, 2010
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7:36 am
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Did you not know, Nott, know, no one, one knew, Nott a mother, Nott a wife, not a son, son, these are things that happen if they know do. nott. tell. you would not need to, yes, yes you would, yes you would, they do, nott, see.
still
calm
quiet now
quiet now
nott too quiet
nott seen not heard
not heard
shh, shshsh shut up shut up shut up - dear headmisstress, I respectfully request permission, I do not feel, at home, the opposite may be true, I do not feel, that remaining, allow me to return to Hogwartspleasepleaseplease please shut up shut up SHUT UP shhh
can not say no good boys can nott, seen not heard
It must disappear you must eat, no no no do Nott, say nothing
His friends are here, his friends.
There aren't any thestrals here
I think you even enjoyed it
current mood: distressed
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7:35 am
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| Monday, July 12th, 2010
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8:38 pm
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I had been in a room, a place, a darkness, a basement, the basement, the cells for being an awful badboy no, NO, because they didn't understand, understand!!! I HAD to do it, they came and replaced my eyes after taking little pieces little pieces away and now I can see I know that these are not MINE! - I can't have these in place so I took them out, or tried. They won't let me take them out, make me eat, make me the child hiding in the night in fear of the torches and now they've burned me melted these new eyes in, I'll never see real again. Try to forget, try to forget, try to forget. They have put me back but now I have no nails.
Oh take me away take me AWAY
current mood: scared
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| Saturday, July 3rd, 2010
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8:52 pm
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They make my tummy heavy so full of stones and curses that they won't let me take outtake outhey won't LLET ME TAKE OUT wont let me in my throat or with my nails into my tummy so they tie them tie them away, held with wires and hands until I agree, agree to be a good boy I'll be a good boy and not try to take out the stones and stay still, and lie very still, and not tell anyone, and not tell, and not tell, and not tell anyone, shhhhh sounds whisper, waves, lapping at the ends of my head, telling me shhh sh sh sh and when it happens
look away
current mood:  cold
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